Dating 101
Thursday, March 19, 2009
There are a lot of things I'm learning about dating, as I have not really done a lot of it in the last few years.
There's some simple rules, don't pick your nose
Chew with mouth closed
Projectile vomiting is bad....all very sound easy to know rules.
Here's one I must add to my list:
Never EVER use hair remover on your upper lip an hour before a date...EVER
link | posted by KaraMia at 3/19/2009 09:36:00 AM
Victoria Secret is Calling
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
My feet hit the rubber of the treadmill with a solid thump, thump, thump
I could feel the tattoo of my heart echoing the beat of my favorite song as it coursed through the headset
My breathing was shallow but not labored
The sweat on my brow, well earned and welcome
This was me, the me that I'm just getting to know
I run
I can keep running
Me? Really. Me.
I watch the girl in the mirror and see the strong legs and the determined face
and I feel almost like floating
...except for the fact that my panties were pooled around my hips from the constant motion of my run and the only thing keeping them from hitting the ground was that my running pants were tucked up nice and snug.
I guess it's time to buy new underwear...
link | posted by KaraMia at 2/25/2009 12:50:00 PM
Today
Monday, January 26, 2009
There's a buzzing inside my belly
and the hairs on my body stand on end
I can't seem to stop thoughts from churning
they flip flop, end over end
inside like a crouching disease
disquiet grabs a handhold
I can't seem to shake free
from dissatisfaction claiming me
I want, but there is
so much vast emptiness
I need, yet
everything seems beyond reach
I feel, too much
all my senses are aflame
I reach for something more
but it still remains un-named
All I know is this restlessness
is taking over me
growing, building blocks upon itself
till there is nothing left but the yearning
burying me beneath
layers and layers of me
link | posted by KaraMia at 1/26/2009 10:37:00 AM
The year in brief
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
I haven't blogged much this past year, in fact, I wonder if anyone will even read this post.
So many things have happened;
I began a journey
I accomplished a goal
I was on TV..a couple times
I found myself and my pride again
I fell in love
I had my heart broken
I found my resolve tested
What a roller coaster 2008 was for me and it makes me sad that it ended with heartbreak. I find myself wondering how to pull out of the pain of it.
For years I didn't let a man close to me. I had a lot of excuses why, but the reality was I was hiding from being hurt again. So when I opened up to this last relationship, I had no safety nets, I just fell. I trusted him, I bought the dream, and now I'm having to deal with the reality of losing not only a love, but a friend as well. I think the friend part is the worst. Now fond memories of our friendship are overshadowed by betrayal and pain.
I find myself looking for a replacement to fill the hole that's left. I'm not shutting the door and barring the windows this time, but this looking has a pain all of its own.
You wonder if you will ever feel the same way about someone new, if your hip will align just right with his, if your head will tuck, just so, under his chin.
I don't know, but I'm trying.
link | posted by KaraMia at 1/14/2009 07:59:00 AM
To Ray
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
It's funny how when in a relationship you think everything is going along fine, until it's not.It's like you are driving along, humming to a favorite song and a rabid deer shoots out of the bushes and WHAM, you're on your ass in the snow and your car is fucked to hell and back.
That's how I feel.
But you, your still driving along singing to your favorite song like nothing happened. Yet one day that deer is going to bite you on your ever loving ass.
See, I'm going to pick my butt up and dust it off and get back in the car, but you, you're going to miss me.
When your lonely or hurt or sad, You're going to miss me.
When a certain song comes on that reminds you, you're going to miss me.
When the person lying beside you isn't quite so pretty, you're going to miss me.
When her kisses are not so new, you're going to miss me.
When things go wrong and life just isn't working, you're going to miss me.
I will haunt you for the rest of your life with "what might have been's" and "I should have just..."
How do I know this? Because my only crime was loving you to well, and that's one ghost that lingers.
I'm the girl that never did anything wrong, the one that you should never let get away. I'm the girl that years from now you will wonder what i'm doing and wish you could see me just one more time.
As for me, it's hard to miss the deer that fucked up your car. I'm mounting those antlers on my mother fucking mantel and I wont miss you at all.
link | posted by KaraMia at 12/16/2008 07:44:00 AM
